No, this post isn’t inspired by Eric Carmen’s song nor by this guy. Though it would be fun to do what he did, this was influenced by a few words from this article. In many ways, yes, I am that type but I’m not here to talk about that department. I’m here to talk about solitude. Alone time. Being all by myself.
“…it’s in her nature to crave those precious hours of solitude – being only with her thoughts, completely alone in a crowd or in the vastness of a quiet scene.
Some call it antisocial; she calls it sanity.”
No, it’s not an introvert thing. Regardless of who you are, we all need some alone time. We need enough solitary space to think and assess our lives. We need to separate ourselves from influencers because at the end of the day, it’s still you who decides what’s what.
So yes, back to being all by myself. For almost a day, I kept conversation (with people I knew) at a minimum, half successfully did a digital detox (I had to use my camera’s phone from time to time), and veered away from social media. Brimming with excitement, I headed out to spend the day on my own.
As a starter, I tried Yin Yoga for the first time. Unlike other types of yoga, this is more of a relaxed variant as you do a lot of stretching and stay in the poses longer. Piece of cake right? Not really. I had some difficulties in some poses. But despite that, I still found it very relaxing. Having to hold the poses longer and focusing on it allowed my mind to be at ease. I felt calm, collected and peaceful inside. All the stress, worries and tension floated out of my body. I strongly believe yoga is not just good for the body but for one’s soul as well. I have yet to fully immerse myself in that thought but I know I’m getting there little by little.
Table for one please
In a busy cafe, I mouthed and voiced out the words “table for one please” to the waiter. As he guided me to my seat and offered the menu, I scanned the crowd. Talks of personal lives, social movement and business filled the air. Beside my assigned table, an interview was ongoing. And at my other side, two foreigners were discussing something I didn’t understand. It wasn’t my intention to eavesdrop but their conversations were audible enough. Or maybe, my sense of hearing heightened.
In that sea of busyness, it was just me completely alone and surrounded by tables filled with groups of people. As I munched on my Rigatoni, I zoned in on my book and filled my head with my own conversations. No, I’m not going crazy. It’s just me delving in the moment, losing myself in my own thoughts and enjoying my book.
The 350 ticket
I’ve always wanted to go back to this museum on a non-academic purpose. And this time, it was just for pure leisure and appreciation of what it holds. Lucky me, there was a talk by my former professor, Dr. Ambeth R. Ocampo, at the museum on that day. It has become an annual event at the Ayala Museum for him to hold these lectures. The place was packed with students, professors, people from the media and many more to listen to his talk. Since I got there early, I grabbed my free book (included in the ticket fee) and toured the place as I waited for his lecture to begin.
‘Twas a good talk that almost went on for 2 hours. Got a bit nostalgic as he discussed about Rizal and history. There’s so much to learn about our national hero especially about his being human. I won’t narrate here the discussions he presented. One really has to be there to experience the whole Ambeth R. Ocampo lecture. He’s a really good historian and so worth every peso spent.
A cup of sweetness
As the day was coming to a close, I decided to get myself some Pistachio Berries N Cream cupcake. I ended my day with a dose of sugar. Honestly, this was not how I wanted my day to end. I envisioned something else; something serene and quiet.
I imagined myself at a garden or a pasture just staring at the sunset. I’ll watch the hues of orange, blue, pink, and indigo play in the sky. And as these hues continue to play to the darkness, turning the day into night, I would be listening to some tunes (this and this) on loop. And this time, I would be completely alone.
Overall, the day was more than good for me. There were a couple of lows but mostly, I was on a high. This may seem like an ordinary day for some but it wasn’t for me. After having a rough couple of weeks, it’s good to just detach yourself from all that and relax a little. And right now, I couldn’t put into words what I want to say. And this is probably my most personal entry to date. And probably the longest one too. And I keep on typing “and”.
For those who were expecting a food post, I apologize for I showed a different side of me here. Will there be another post such as this? I can never really tell. So for now, let me share with you a quote that I got from one of my really good friends. It’s from Leonardo Da Vinci which is apt for this.
“Every now and then go away, have a little relaxation, for when you come back to your work your judgment will be surer. Go some distance away because then the work appears smaller and more of it can be taken in at a glance and a lack of harmony and proportion is more readily seen.”
Yes to going away and yes to a little relaxation 🙂